Probably not so good advice but to stop ‘being’ a loser is to stop feeling like one. You’re doing amazing OP. The language, the diet change, getting into more hobbies. If you start believing you can do it, you can accomplish everything else. Mindset matters but the hardest part is starting, but you can do this!

I tweaked to look like windows xp, loved the retro feeling

why would it stop when it never was to begin with? lol