you are right, but somehow I cannot stop ruminating about this. Just thinking about them and how I was treated infuriates me.

I must insist you read the thread again. I haven’t even started my new job.

Kindly point where I’m having the exact same issues at a new job I haven’t even started.

calm down, think before writing.

thank you

this is bed nursing specific

I don’t know if this is PTSD, but the mere mention of their names and remembering them infuriates me.

I know I should be better than this and leave the past behind me, but somehow I cannot.

At least I’m eating and resting well

This is like the 6th thread I’ve seen on here by you, every one almost identical in that you hate your job, you hate everyone there, everyone is mean to you, everyone else is lazy, etc

then read the thread again dude, apparently you didn’t notice I no longer work there

People won’t like you for it but you won’t care.

actually, some unidentified coworkers complained I’m not friendly and the way I speak is demanding.

My former supervisor seemed to care about this because she came to me with these accusations, repeatedly. I still don’t know if this something big enough to fire somebody.

I don’t care, don’t give a fuck but apparently hr does…

Don’t give a fuck attitude going forward is a must.

I’m gonna have to ask you to explain here:

I stopped giving a fuck about my coworkers 2 weeks before calling in sick, like, fuck them and I hope they burn in hell. If I ever have to set foot at that god forsaken piece of shit ward I’m calling in sick again. Fuck em.

I also don’t give a fuck about any of my former managers.

I don’t want to to say I don’t give a flying fuck about my current hospital, because I’m staying with them on a different role until I find something better, which may or may not happen, but it’s a clock in clock out and I’m fucking done with you and fuck you asshole situation

you suggest not giving a fuck even going forward? but I do need to give a fuck not to lose my new position until I have secured a newer one, right? I don’t even know if I’m going to hate the new position away from patients as much as the ward.

you other 3 bullet points are great though

so I’m going to have a way to work and sustain myself while doing some therapy?

Did you do therapy or simply started your new job and somehow your brain forgot that part of your former life? Talked to friends?

I’ll watch the video now

I don’t want to go to work dreading having to go to work, I don’t want to think about how I’m going to be yelled at, what snarky remarks I’m gonna have to hear, what coworkers are going to lazy around while I work and their sit on their asses, I don’t want to prepare a working plan for the day only to be completely ignored by a coworker that, while not my superior, feels and acts like it only because she’s been there longer than me.

I don’t want to go to work in fear.

this looks like PTSD now.

I want to go to work to do the job to the best of my abilities feeling rested, to do my pauses as stipulated in the contract, to avoid drama and go home.

or admit I hate nursing and I have to quit bedside.

really. I hate nursing.

you mean half assing…

if this is true, it’s better I work alone

yes

wow… good post

none of us actually care about how anyone else’s weekends were or how the other person’s kids are doing.

got it, you ask to fake interest in the other person so he feels valued. Seems ridiculous and a waste of intellect.

It seems the best I can do is working alone. These rituals are way too complicated for me.

that would be cruel, this is a very insensitive comment

being nice is all it takes.

if you mean I have to do this I shouldn’t even waste my time and look for jobs where I work alone. Step 2 is already Get to know your coworkers which for the most part, are irrelevant to me. And I can’t fake that.

Saying hi is not enough?

I have no problem with those who have something interesting to say but most of them for the most part care about stuff so asinine it makes me want to kill them and then myself.

Either I learn really fast to deflect very successfully or I start working alone. To keep my sanity.

You don’t have to socialize. But being a decent person means sacrificing your comfort for others’ sometimes.

you seem to imply there’s something like a middle point between fully socializing and being decent, which I guess means talking but less? Is this so?

You don’t sound ND, you just sound like you don’t care to change. That’s different.

the people who criticize me are not that important to me that warrant I change to some version of what they consider better. I’ve reached a point where it doesn’t make sense anymore to try to be a better, more knowledgeable professional but simply finding a job where people leave me alone. At least I’d be happier.

I guess I’m full misanthrope now

I guess it’s ‘good’ I can ‘change’ if I so decide? but really, change, for what?