I cannot do a damn thing. Be it easy, be it hard, be it rewarding, be it just pure pleasure. I cannot enjoy a thing thinking it is just waste of time. I cannot carry myself to do a hard task thinking about the high effort it requires. Even if I break it into small parts, I would only do the bare minimum for a day or two and stop it.

My entire life is being passed away coming back tired, hungry and yearning for sleep, from a job I dislike to the core.

I am not moving towards my goals. I cannot quit this job. Time is passing. I’m stuck. Weekends cometh, I use them all trying to catch up on sleep.

Every week I’m doing just the bare minimum to survive thinking I might do something on the weekend and I don’t. How do I break out this cycle? There’s a lot more I could unwind upon but this post is already long enough.

Argh

  • zerozaku@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
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    2 days ago

    Hi, first of all you all have been very nice to me putting up huge comments to help me out. Thank you so much. I’m kinda moved lol.

    Coming to accountability partners, I think I am very shy person and I don’t like sharing self improvement things with anyone irl not because they are bad (I have a sweet family) but I just don’t like to share my goals and then get asked questions about it whether it is good or bad.

    I have an online friend with whom I share a lot of things which I don’t with people irl, and maybe I can convince them to be my accountability partner.

    I have few questions about the goals though. Do they have to huge like the one you shared? Do I have to report back everyday to my partner? How do I go about it.

    Once again thank you for looking out for an random internet stranger <3 I was gonna reply later to you all one by one, but you keeping the timeframe out for me to check on me had be typing all this on the spot. Thanks <3

    • m0darn@lemmy.ca
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      2 days ago

      I can only speak from my own experience.

      My strategy is committing to planning my day at the beginning of the day (9:10AM after I’ve gotten my kids to school) and then talking with my wife before bed about how well I managed to stick to the plan. Ie did I actually plan tasks for the day, did I accomplish those tasks, is there anything she’d like me to add to tomorrow’s tasks etc.

      Planning my day includes assigning time frames for the tasks, including one task right after planning. If I know I’m likely to want to play video games that day, plan a time and duration, and set an alarm on my phone to interrupt my play at the time I thought I should stop.

      Try really hard to frame things in an analog way. Ie As progress instead of as victory or failure.

      What I mean is you didn’t do exactly what I asked, and that’s fine you made real progress towards developing a sustainable solution.

      I use a paper productivity planner to plan my day and I’ve found it very helpful. maybe do 30 minutes of research into options available to you.

      • zerozaku@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
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        5 hours ago

        Thanks for the write-up again.

        Don’t get me wrong but having to report to your accountability partner sounds very daunting to me. I have tried making to-do lists with time blocking in the past and was only half successful with them. I’ll try to implement the accountability method in a way that puts with less pressure on myself. Thanks.