Angry_Autist (he/him)

IED(EDS) sufferer and spectrum surfer. You probably won’t like what I have to say.

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  • No one understand how I struggle hour by hour to not become violent. It’s medical and I have almost no control over when it will arise

    I have done very well, only ever let myself go once in my life and have regretted it ever since.

    Whenever I tell people they assume I’m trying to be an edgy badass when really I am so fucking tired of having to isolate myself for most of my life for other people’s safety and so fucking lonely because any IRL friend that hangs around me enough is going to see an episode and ghost me.

    Add on top of that literally every social outlet I’ve had has been whittled away.

    I don’t WANT to be an angry person. I like peace and cats and relaxing music. I’m a pacifist and would have been a conscientious objector had I been drafted. I have general goodwill towards most people unless they prove themselves unworthy. I give even proven liars the benefit of the doubt because I want to see the best in people but nearly every minute of my life a part of my fucking mind is on overdrive looking for a reason to break someone’s arm.

    I have spent decades learning how to make myself look small and nonthreatening and I wear it like a mask all the time because when I walk the way my brain wants me to walk I get called into HR for no fucking reason

    I have never threatened anyone, never even spoke loudly more than a handful of times but I have lost SEVEN FUCKING JOBS because HR tells me ‘You’re making people in the workplace uncomfortable’







  • Did you know that narcissists and sociopaths tend to target autists and depressives at higher rates than nearly any other at-risk grouping? Did you know their primary tactic is to use the autist’s natural social awkwardness and lack of guile against them to shame them publicly to demoralize them into submission?

    It’s really interesting to read about, the case studies, the behavioral theories. Hell it even ties into anthropology.

    And do you know what? It works really well!

    Thats why sociopaths rule the world right now!

    Congrats your ilk won, and look at the utopian paradise you neoliberal social rapists have created







  • If my experience is common, the update ‘pre-loads’ some non-locked system files as time goes on while the update is downloaded but not technically applied by the tool. So these files get changed without a reboot, and while you may not be using them at the time of overwrite, when you next load them, there are subtle incompatibilities with the previous version and your active data.

    Kind of like ‘The dll was replaced by the exe is still the old version’, and this causes a ton of small but annoying glitches, crashes, and odd audio behavior.

    Untill reboot, which happens less and less often now that windows doesn’t bluescreen every few hours.

    My conspiracy is that they are aware of it, and do not change it despite the risks it provides, to keep everyone in line with their update schedule, denying the user the rights to control their own hardware, again.