I’m in a similar boat, but I never feel fully satisfied to release a song (probably cuz I am a hobbyist and I suck lol).
But regardless, I think there is an element of selling your soul to Hollywood to really make it big, and I just don’t have that kind of commitment at this point in my life. I like relaxing and anonymity.
Emphasis on him suffering. The algorithm is incentivizing YouTubers to adhere to this meta. GN isn’t trying to mislead us, it’s just how the job is structured.