

For me the noise and over stimulation is a big part of it, but there’s also a much more complex web of expectations that I don’t understand, and my “over confidence” (read: my failure to have adequately absorbed the cultural suppression of self esteem) tends to put me into a social position that someone with me lack of skills should not have.
When I do a conference presentation (like I’m preparing for later this week), I can prepare a very scripted set of remarks, and that tends to go well, but off the cuff, I feel like a plate of spaghetti.



In that very specific way I am not like a lost bat, but in many other ways I am exactly like one.