I did that once. Felt good. Still feels yucky though, with how deep this is ingrained into my brain.

If anything, I’m able to see how much of self-imposed harmful stuff I’ve been trained to consider not only normal, but a necessity. I believe there was no malice in the people that pushed these things/beliefs onto me, but being conscious of them is a good first step to differentiate with what to keep and what to let go. Even if I can’t fix myself, I can at least try not to push these onto others, should the occasion rise.