I woke up with a sore neck and had to put some Icy Hot (ointment for sore muscles) on. I accidentally touched my ear while doing so and now it is tingling.
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I woke up with a sore neck and had to put some Icy Hot (ointment for sore muscles) on. I accidentally touched my ear while doing so and now it is tingling.
This post is for casual conversation if you don’t feel like making a post of your own.
I thought i waa doing so well.
Every morning I put my energy level as a percentage in an app, along with some other stuff I track. I recently had a few days around 80-85%, the highest since I started tracking. I waa feeling like I had finally started to recover from autistic burnout.
Last night… Everything was fine. Everyone had a great time except for me, because it wasn’t the way it was supposed to be. And now today i’m exhausted. I can feel specific parts of my brain that are tired, like a sore muscle. I logged 20% in the app.
It was supposed to be a chill evening. A Tuesday. My wife and I partied pretty hard last Friday and Saturday, and we have plans with our bf and gf to party hard this Saturday too. This was the first time all summer that the stars finally aligned to our bf and gf coming over our house where I am much more comfortable. They just took a trip last weekend so I wanted to hear their stories from it. It somehow transformed from a chill evening to a party. My wife kept on doing more and more shots and she put on some dark trap/phonk music. The neighbors came over and joined in, and my wife instructed the retired old lady next door in how to use a bong. My wife got drunk and high.
I don’t mind partying, but I cannot do this every day. I can’t handle every time we hang out as a polycule transforming into a “party”. My neighbors are cool and I want to be a good neighbor. My wife wants to be friendly, and our boyfriend also loves people and interaction and went out of his way to make them feel welcome. But the backyard is my safe space. My place of solitude and peace. I’m trying really hard to learn to relax, unmask, and be more natural around my bf and gf but it’s hard to do that when I can’t even chill in my backyard without suddenly finding myself hosting a party.
I probably should have tapped out. Gone to the bedroom and laid down in the dark for a bit. But I really wanted to hang out. I wanted to catch up with the bf and gf. We have a pretty busy week scheduled with activities and novelty. This was a very rare opportunity for me to spend time with them in an environment where i’m comfortable and not actively managing overstimulation, but I feel like it got ruined.