Used to be an interesting rock band, now just a boring jam band…

I’m in Arvada! Howdy!

I’d either extrapolate on the importance of self negativity and it’s how it’s been lost in modern culture, or the tragedy that is the loss of teaching civics in schools.

Or maybe I’d just geek out on Laplace transforms and how they allow you to solve complex non-linear systems as if they’re DC circuits.

Or how recreational access to psychedelics are just as important as therapeutic use.

See also: Brian Eno

A scale of 1-10 at how likely we could be friends.

The US has a single coast-to-coast train called “The Zephyr.” It is wildly expensive, and takes multiple days to go from one coast to the other.

If we had bullet trains, our corporate-owned government would still make them unaffordable.

It runs by my back yard. It is a laughably small train, as the only people that ride it do it as a “holiday”

I have this same problem, but with my underwear sliding off my ass into my pants…

I wish Smugglers Run would get a reboot…

Fuck Metallica.

Came here for this, got what I wanted.

https://youtu.be/wy9r2qeouiQ

I’m not sure you could call it a “flex” but the number of people I meet who are almost proud of how bad they are at math is ridiculous. Short of having been diagnosed with dyscalculia, lacking basic mathematics skills as an adult should be on par with not knowing how to read.

It blows my mind how many other Americans I come across who lack basic understandings of fractions. We use the damn imperial system, which is a whole other issue for a different lemmy rant.

Round here we call it “a case of the fuck-its”

Mango, meet Mongo. He also, is not pleased with the situation…

If you dig that Suburban Legends song, maybe check out the band TWRP. Might dig it.

I answered your actual question in the original post.

My Morning Jacket - In it’s Infancy (The Waterfall)

I found this song and got stoked I might have a new band to dig into. Dammit if the rest of their music isn’t boring as shit. I found them so dull, I actually had to come back to this song and make sure I didn’t mistake it for another band.

Same thing happened with Jesus & the Brides of Dracula - Turning Teeth

The song has a killer vibe, and then when I found out it was The Silversun Pickups I was actually bummed to know they could make such interesting music, but don’t.

To be fair, Disasterpiece wrote the song, but Silversun did something with it much cooler than anything else they’ve written.

This is where I’ve been at for… Well… Years.

I tried ketamine therapy last year. It helped a lot right until I had to stop, then I went right back to feeling nothing about everything. It actually had this side-effect where I no longer derive any joy from taking other psychedelics recreationally.

I’m trying different anti-depressants now and some of them make it worse, none really make it better. Though my ability to focus on things I have to do but don’t care about has gotten a little better.

I’m also basically just draining what little I had in my bank account doing all this bullshit.

I don’t think I’m autistic. But I’ve been a “nihilist” since before I knew that word or what it meant. The absurdism can be both a blessing and a curse.

I’ve always hoped I got it wrong, and there was something I just wasn’t able to see to derive SOME meaning or joy from existence. Watching the world this past year and just going through my usual work-eat-sleep cycle has put me in the “I guess I’ll just do this until I die” mode.

I have a wife and a sister that would be very upset if I killed myself, and I’m too old now to do something like that anyway. I try to read or play video games in my free time to just turn my brain off. It helps a little. Pets also help.

I’m trying to just be honest, genuine, and kind with other people to ease my self perspective until I finally drop dead. It feels nice to be real with people I don’t know, even if it’s a little off-putting to them. My perspective makes it difficult to connect with others. Being honest with anyone in that regard is a good way to “bum people out.” So having friends is mostly out of the equation. I have a few, but those friendships are definitely on their terms and have little to actually do with me. They enjoy my sincerity and honesty, I enjoy getting out of the house a few times a year.

I like to tell myself “Soon it will be just like it was before you were born. There will be nothing, you will be nothing, and it will mean nothing.” It’s like a little mantra, just to take the sting out of monotony.

Basically I’m just trying to do little things to ease others suffering with existing until I can finally be done with it. Seems to be the closest I can get to “peace.”

I typed this all knowing it would be zero-sum, at best. But it’s my very honest perspective on this exact situation. Maybe something in it will be relatable to someone. Sometimes that feels nice. Otherwise it’s just people typing at one another on the internet. Nothing relating to nobody.

As someone who spent his 20’s working in the music industry, I think it’s important to underline that success or talent for a person in music has literally nothing to do with that person’s intelligence.

Doesn’t mean they can’t be smart, but it’s far more likely than people think that the musicians you love are kinda dumb as fuck.

I think that lack of self analysis/awareness frees up the capacity to convey raw emotion or something…

They did, and they still do, too.