Your recent posts remind me of some forgotten internet lingo from the LiveJournal era - e/n, short for everything/nothing, as in posts that were incredibly meaningful to the poster but not to anyone else.
Your story might be better received in a community like offmychest or mildlyinteresting or a confession one - this isn’t really the audience for these.
They take what censorship they do have incredibly seriously, though. To the point that many Japanese companies stopped selling uncensored versions of their games in the West because their domestic audience was using VPNs to buy them and that was enough to get the government on their asses.
Even the possibility of Japanese users bypassing censorship was enough to put them in a worse situation than the West is currently in with payment processors.
Well there’s metric fucktons of porn of the former but basically none of the latter, so it seems like you have your answer.