The stability tricks me into thinking it wasn’t so bad before was it? Than I remember the sleepless nights and the copious amount of drugs I’d have to take to just sleep or shut it off for a moment. Also how aggregated and aggressive I’d become. Push my body and my mind until they popped.
Certainly don’t miss those bits. Mine was more frequent and not as serve, so it really helped me get things done and went unnoticed. Than one got really bad and it wasn’t fun anymore. Decided I couldn’t live like this anymore.
Happy I made the change, but still a struggle to keep to it. But the people around me really like the new me and I don’t put everyone on edge anymore. That’s important to me.
Quits job as a grocery clerk to go to school to become an astronaut.
Meanwhile: Buzz Aldrin places a hand on the porthole facing Earth, and whispers “I wish I was bagging apples right now.”
I’m a generally miserable git who goes through bouts of extreme energy/happiness usually fuelled by a sudden uptick in sugar or alcohol.
It’s a weird existence, but I’m glad that of all the mental configurations that life could have handed me, I’m built like this and not the other way round.
I am bipolar 1. My mania can last anywhere from a day to several months, depending on what triggers it and if something/someone is enabling it. I am mildly manic at the moment. I can usually tell when I can’t sleep and I get obsessive about a subject. Not taking my Seroquel can definitely trigger it or enable it.
I hope you take care of yourself. Good luck!
For the longest time I ignored every manic episode that lasted less than a few days. I always thought of a manic episode as something that lasts at least a month. Month long episodes only happen to me about once every five years, as I said in the meme. I just got over the last one. I’m way more down to earth than I was before, but not gonna lie, I’m still a bit hypomanic.
Never had full-blown mania. I’m a rapid-cycling bipolar with existential depression. I’m like a fucking metronome with a 4 week cycle and, yes, I know exactly what that sounds like.
Losing hypomania may well be the hardest part of getting “stable,” outside of still feeling the cycle but just more muted. I’m sorry, friend.
rapid cycling bipolar with existential depression
Well there’s a label I’ve never heard before. I thought rapid cycling was when you cycled between mania and clinical depression, which sounds like an absolute nightmare. I mean being bipolar is hard enough as it is
You got your boyeriod
Not anymore!
And on top of that, I can’t sleep more than three hours a night without alcohol. I got to give a big shoutout to my former psychiatrist for this one. He prescribed me 2 mg klonopin every night when he knew I was drinking 12 beers every night.
I’m not going to name him because the last time I named and shamed him I got permabanned from Reddit
This isn’t reddit, so shame him.
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