For me, it’s the near-universal social rejection. To a large degree, I’ve learned how to live with it, accept it, not blame myself or others too much. It’s not always a bad thing, either, or not as bad as it might seem… there are positives.
But it is easily the thing that adversely affect my life the most. Every group rejects me, eventually, if not immediately. Every friend becomes unfriendly, many work relationships are strained. Finding a way to be okay when it seems like everyone would rather you just go away.
Today, it feels more difficult than usual but I know I will feel better soon. I wish I had some ND friendships to help me recharge. It’s funny, I left a comment on another post on how to best deal with this kind of thing but, honestly, my capacity to be resilient is not so great rn. Hopeful it will be better tomorrow.
I feel you. It’s omnipresent and still we need to expose ourselves, we also require social contacts.
Just Sunday I had to cancel something and still feel bad about it. Since then no answer, I have no idea what the rest of the group did. Feels being excluded and a failure. Still, I ran out of spoons and had to do it.
And people say it’s okay I understand but they don’t really. It’s never okay when it relates or targets them. Wish I had a rl. Autistic group to meet or even one relatable person now.
But being in survival mode I just don’t have the reserves to put effort in.