For me, it’s the near-universal social rejection. To a large degree, I’ve learned how to live with it, accept it, not blame myself or others too much. It’s not always a bad thing, either, or not as bad as it might seem… there are positives.
But it is easily the thing that adversely affect my life the most. Every group rejects me, eventually, if not immediately. Every friend becomes unfriendly, many work relationships are strained. Finding a way to be okay when it seems like everyone would rather you just go away.
Today, it feels more difficult than usual but I know I will feel better soon. I wish I had some ND friendships to help me recharge. It’s funny, I left a comment on another post on how to best deal with this kind of thing but, honestly, my capacity to be resilient is not so great rn. Hopeful it will be better tomorrow.
honestly a tie between “terror in the pit of my soul at the combination of fascist christian nationalists in government who worship the Nazis, who had the Aktion T4 program, and who now have surveillance capabilities that would give the Gestapo wet dreams, and the secretary of health and human services saying (paraphrasing here) autistic people as a whole essentially have no future”; and “all I do is bother people whether I want to or not, and all people tend to do insofar as intentionally interacting with me is to screw with me.”