For me it sort of stimulated my brain and got it going again.
I had a bad bout of depression in my early 20s, and the first time I took antidepressants I remember noticing how vibrant all the colours were, how much sound there was. It was like everything had been dulled and a veil had been lifted.
However it was not an instant cure - the first effects just showed how bad my depression was. It took weeks and months for things to gradually improve.
The next thing I actually noticed changing was my motivation to do things started lifting. For me it was a positive, if slow process. But it can be a negative thing ironically - people can be motivated to commit suicide and it’s why it’s one of the ironic risks of antidepressants at first. Take antidepressants under close medical supervision.
But eventually my mood did lift. It was very gradual. And I didn’t really notice it until moments of laughter came back or I found joy in my hobbies and interests again.
I would say antidepressants don’t just lift mood in one go. I’d think it move of mood swinging up and down around a centre. When you’re depressed your mood is centred at very low, and swings around very low and a bit less low. What antidepressants do is gradually move that centre up back toward normal. So at first you swing between very low and a bit less low, then between quite low and low, then a low and a little low, then a little low and normal and eventually you’re centre hits normal. Then you swing between a little low and a little high.
The antidepressants keep you at that level - they don’t make you endlessly happy, they just return your centre to where it should be. (For.some people they can tip into mania and over but that’s uncommon).
I stayed on antidepressant for nearly 2 years and finally came off. That’s when things got better - the antidepressants did the lifting but I also learnt the warning signs of depression and could be vigilant in the future. Coming off antidepressant when I was ready, the centre of my mood was in a good place but swings up and down were bigger/back to normal so I could have really good times again, but also some bad times. The difference with the bad times was they didn’t last, plus they were “appropriate” to life’s events and struggles. I didn’t need the antidepressants to.maintian that. But that is just for me - I know some people stay on antidepressants for life to achieve the same outcome.
I also knew when to ask to go back on antidepressants. I needed short courses of 3 months or so a couple of times. I actually had a terrible episode of depression again for over a year after a traumatic life event and the doctor denied me the medication saying I was just “grieving”. I had a terrible bout of depression lasting nearly 2 years and nearly killed myself. That depression thankfully finally lifted itself but it really damaged my trust in the medical profession (and I’m a doctor myself)
For me antidepressants work. They’re not a magic wand and they’re not the whole solution however. Sadly people don’t get access to other useful parts of the solution like CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) - I didn’t for example. But you can learn strategies to cope, prevent your mood dropping so low, and recognising when your mood drops. For me a the antidepressanrs were a tool to get me back to a normal centre ground/baseline while I learnt how to manage things. And they were and are a tool I’m prepared to go back to should things ever go bad again.
For me it sort of stimulated my brain and got it going again.
I had a bad bout of depression in my early 20s, and the first time I took antidepressants I remember noticing how vibrant all the colours were, how much sound there was. It was like everything had been dulled and a veil had been lifted.
However it was not an instant cure - the first effects just showed how bad my depression was. It took weeks and months for things to gradually improve.
The next thing I actually noticed changing was my motivation to do things started lifting. For me it was a positive, if slow process. But it can be a negative thing ironically - people can be motivated to commit suicide and it’s why it’s one of the ironic risks of antidepressants at first. Take antidepressants under close medical supervision.
But eventually my mood did lift. It was very gradual. And I didn’t really notice it until moments of laughter came back or I found joy in my hobbies and interests again.
I would say antidepressants don’t just lift mood in one go. I’d think it move of mood swinging up and down around a centre. When you’re depressed your mood is centred at very low, and swings around very low and a bit less low. What antidepressants do is gradually move that centre up back toward normal. So at first you swing between very low and a bit less low, then between quite low and low, then a low and a little low, then a little low and normal and eventually you’re centre hits normal. Then you swing between a little low and a little high.
The antidepressants keep you at that level - they don’t make you endlessly happy, they just return your centre to where it should be. (For.some people they can tip into mania and over but that’s uncommon).
I stayed on antidepressant for nearly 2 years and finally came off. That’s when things got better - the antidepressants did the lifting but I also learnt the warning signs of depression and could be vigilant in the future. Coming off antidepressant when I was ready, the centre of my mood was in a good place but swings up and down were bigger/back to normal so I could have really good times again, but also some bad times. The difference with the bad times was they didn’t last, plus they were “appropriate” to life’s events and struggles. I didn’t need the antidepressants to.maintian that. But that is just for me - I know some people stay on antidepressants for life to achieve the same outcome.
I also knew when to ask to go back on antidepressants. I needed short courses of 3 months or so a couple of times. I actually had a terrible episode of depression again for over a year after a traumatic life event and the doctor denied me the medication saying I was just “grieving”. I had a terrible bout of depression lasting nearly 2 years and nearly killed myself. That depression thankfully finally lifted itself but it really damaged my trust in the medical profession (and I’m a doctor myself)
For me antidepressants work. They’re not a magic wand and they’re not the whole solution however. Sadly people don’t get access to other useful parts of the solution like CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) - I didn’t for example. But you can learn strategies to cope, prevent your mood dropping so low, and recognising when your mood drops. For me a the antidepressanrs were a tool to get me back to a normal centre ground/baseline while I learnt how to manage things. And they were and are a tool I’m prepared to go back to should things ever go bad again.