idk probably just really weird like everything else they’ve ever done for me. It’d be one of many grand sweeping gestures that just emphasizes how little they were actually willing to emotionally invest in me day to day. Like cool but could you have maybe just have not spent my entire childhood telling me I’m not good enough. Like I can practically hear my mother saying “well it doesn’t matter whether or not our kids are what we wanted it’s still our jobs as parents to sacrifice everything for them.” Like bitch just don’t then. I’d rather you just didn’t if it meant I could get away from your constant backhanded “love.” I’ve been passively suicidal since like 14 years old and have multiple thoughts of harming myself daily because of the way they raised me. I’ll just go on to the next life myself than keep dealing with them or let them keep trying to guilt me into being the person they wish I was, thank you very much.
idk probably just really weird like everything else they’ve ever done for me. It’d be one of many grand sweeping gestures that just emphasizes how little they were actually willing to emotionally invest in me day to day. Like cool but could you have maybe just have not spent my entire childhood telling me I’m not good enough. Like I can practically hear my mother saying “well it doesn’t matter whether or not our kids are what we wanted it’s still our jobs as parents to sacrifice everything for them.” Like bitch just don’t then. I’d rather you just didn’t if it meant I could get away from your constant backhanded “love.” I’ve been passively suicidal since like 14 years old and have multiple thoughts of harming myself daily because of the way they raised me. I’ll just go on to the next life myself than keep dealing with them or let them keep trying to guilt me into being the person they wish I was, thank you very much.