This will be the first year I won’t go see my family and I’m very much looking forward to staying home. Finally went no contact after the election. Had one of the best Thanksgivings this year with my friends instead of my family.

I’ve been basically stranded over the Christmas period, and I tried to get an online chat thing going for people in a similar position. But it went nowhere. So I guess I’ll celebrate with the wild birds that visit me daily. I have a great Christmas feast planned for them.

I take a long staycation every year. This year it’s 11 days, but I’ll go to the movies a lot, see a few museums, take myself out for a few meals, and mostly just relax.

The best part is no regimentation of my life for a good long while. I fly by the seat of my pants and do what I feel on a given day.

We will first eat too much and then we will play games until deep into the night, while hearing classical music.

I will be alone with the dog. So I am gonna make us some steak and play songs on guitar by the fire pit.

watch unix porn and talk with strangers on lemmy…

I’ll go to the cinema, The Physician II comes out on the 25th.

Staying home with my family. Hoping that we’ll have a roach free apartment after the people come in to do a treatment. Would be the best Christmas gift I could receive this year, and I think everyone in the unit could agree. Even better than what my sister-in-law has planned.

Unfortunately, go home.

I am currently on a dorm, and I absolutely hate being with people. I just feel uncomfortable 24/7 being around others, especially random people. Thankfully my roommate doesn’t seem particularly social either - I didn’t actually talk with him yet, and I’ve been here since the start of September.

Now the unfortunate part, he left for Christmas. That means I am alone. Hell, even others from the next room in our cell (2 rooms per bathroom) left. And instead of enjoying that break from others, no, I’ll have to be with family. With my parents, at home, no own room, constantly on watch.

Unfortunately, I have no way to really stay here anyway, I can’t wash my clothes here. There are washing machines, which sounds convenient, until you realize they only take contactless payment cards which is something I don’t use (blocked) (only chip + PIN or cash). I literally have… let me check - 19x EUR 2 coins for vending machines. They could’ve had some of those.

Anyway, so, uh…, misery is what I am planning.

Just…gooning probably. Same thing I do every day. It’s not really Christmas it’s just December 25th.

Eat with my mom, exchange gifts, visit other family, hopefully visit friends from high school. Some classic fairytale would be nice. Before / after have a walk to maintain health.

The plan was to stay home and have a quiet Christmas. Then both the parentals and parentals in law got sick, so now I’m driving/taking the train to two different countries and will spend the parts I’m not driving or looking after the above asleep (because I have chronic fatigue and post exertional malaise).

Edit my flipping car broke down 🤬

I have 5 days off from work. Those 5 days, I’m spending entirely alone. Just trying to make something of my time while I have both the money and the time available. I won’t even talk to anybody I know on Discord. I don’t have any other social media platforms to use so that just helps.

So I’m just going to tank these 2 days of work I have, then begin my peace. Or try to.

Solstice Boxing Day +3

Zoning out, chasing comfort, eating cookies & drinking eggnog.

Saturday night update: This has not gone to plan. lol